Tested Positive

*deep breathe*

the results are in - yup i'm positive
(bad news)
flood of emotions - good and bad
better to know then it is not too
i have a few options to consider
not doubt i'm going to embrace this news with love
taking time for myself is a must right now
it is what it is - life moves on
who else can upgrade their boobies for free?!
(working on seeing if tummy tuck and lypo can be thrown in for free)
i'm sad - yet happy - feel free - loved - strong - weak
MRI's and mammography's are all scheduled for next week
in 3 weeks i get all my questions answered; as i have the time to think of them
ovaries can stay in longer then breasts
living for today - not holding back
things feel heavy on my shoulders - but my Mom is 1st priority
i just know everything will be fine
i promised myself i will embrace the results with love
(i don't break promises)
if you think positive - positive surrounds you - go positive !
i will embrace my Buddha lessons and follow through
i'm good - even if i'm not - i'm still good



PS -->  taking a few days off TiptoeButterfly to just refocus my thoughts and practice the lessons i learned to make sure i'm in positive mind and stay that way - THANK YOU in advance for all your well wishes and loved words - they DO mean a lot to me - THANK YOU BUTTERFLIES!


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48 comments:

  1. Keeping positive thoughts for you and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Prayers always help:) Keep us posted.
    ~Debra xxx
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  2. OH sweetheart, i was all choked up reading this, Just know we are all right beihind you and I am sending you all the positivity and love in the world. You are in my thoughts Sweet Erika,

    Bxx

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  3. I am so sorry to hear that you are going through the unknown. The good news is that you are moving forward and taking steps to ensure a long and happy life. Much love to you today and always.

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  4. Sorry to hear your results, at least you know now you can be get on with sorting it and getting better. It may be scary now but things can only get better. I'll be thinking of you.

    Bee happy x

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  5. You're in my thoughts & prayers - take these couple days to meditate and find your peace. Know that all of us are here to help support you along this journey :)

    -kait

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  6. erika, you are so very amazing. strong, determined, positive and honest.
    sending you all the good energy i can find today!

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  7. Oh, I'm so so so sorry.
    Sending positive thoughts your way and praying for you and your family.
    xx
    Chloe

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  8. sending you all the positivity i can...

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  9. Oh Erika, I'm so sorry to hear this. We are all thinking of you, praying for you and sending you lots of positive energy. I really look up to you and your outlook on life, you inspire me to no end. Please keep us updated.

    Love from Canada
    xoxo

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  10. Knowledge gives you strength and I just know that all will work out as you said- take all the time you need lovely and know we are all here thinking of you and sending many warm hugs your way. xoxoxoxo

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  11. A positive outlook is so important. My prayers are with both you & your mom.

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  12. Sending positive energy, strength, and love your way. xo

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  13. I am so sorry to hear this. But I admire your positivity so much. You and your mom will be in my thoughts and prayers!

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  14. Thinking of you Erika - best to you!

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  15. I am so sorry to hear this...but, at the same time I am so proud of your positive way of thinking! It is amazing! I hope the days you are taking off will help. Lots of prayers!

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  16. Oh love! What a flood of emotions you must be going through. Just know we are here for you and that you can always count on us.

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  17. Erika all my thoughts and prayers are with you Hun.

    Keep positive, embrace the future and know you have more support than you will ever know.

    Much love
    X x

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  18. Oh god - this is certainly not the news we were hoping for. But I'm really glad you're taking it in stride and staying so positive and strong. (But don't forget - it's also okay to break down once in a while.) Take care of yourself, love. We'll see you whenever you're ready to come back.

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  19. Positive thoughts and well wishes coming your way girl!

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  20. You'll surely beat this. I have two friends who are free and healthy now. Sending prayers your way

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  21. Oh Erika, I am so sorry. That would be such hard news to hear. You seem like such a strong person with good a good support system so I know you will make it through this hard time. Sending you positive thoughts.
    xx
    Alicia

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  22. Hi Erika! Oh goodness - you are the meaning of positive! I'm sending all my best wishes and thoughts your way. Stay strong - you ARE strong, and beautiful, and incredible! There are so many positives of this knowing so I only want to be happy for you for those things. best wishes for your mom as well. We'll be here when you're ready or need an open ear. {{{HUG}}}

    xx Vivian @ http://diamondsandtulle.blogspot.com

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  23. stay strong and keep your chin up, girlie. do whatever you need to do. we're all with you!

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  24. You and your mother are in my thoughts and prayers. Try to stay positive. Much love and good vibes being sent your way.
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  25. Oh, Erika darling! I've been out for three weeks and couldn't wait to get back and read your blog. I wanted to know how your mom was doing, but now I read the news about you being positive. Darn!!!
    I SO believe that the universe will respond with what you send out. I live by that principle. I'm so glad you know this too. Glad you are staying positive and strong. I send you good, positive wishes of health. A big hug!

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  26. Erika, you already know that you amaze me! You and your Mom are in my prayers and you have my number if you need someone to listen. I thought of you all day yesterday. Love you. xo xo xo

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  27. Ill be thinking of you honey. Stay positive.

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  28. Oh my Erika ... thoughts and prayers for you and your mother. YOu have an amazing attitude and it will make miracles happen. Lots of love to you.

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  29. Oh Erika. eff. I'm sorry it's the first thing that came to mind. the eff word.

    This is not the result we were hoping for. Ugh. We are here for you. I am here for you. You have the right attitude and are such a pistol. Big, big hugs to you dear friend.

    xoxo,
    Carrie

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  30. I shall be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers & Mum too..it's a long road ahead, but I know you will keep strong & make it through, let yourself take everything in and breathe. Big Big hugs from me to you!! xxx

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  31. Even though you must be experiencing a wave of emotions your positive attitude is awe inspiring. I admire you for that and will continue to think of you. Big hugs xoxo

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  32. Your strength is so inspiring for other women out there going through similar experiences. Hang in there Erica xo

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  33. Oh sweetheart I have chills! I know you must be going through so many different emotions. You're absolutely right though thinking positively will spill on over to your physical health. And you are such a strong woman and have such a wonderful outlook on life. Your positivity and strength will take you through this. And we're here for you whenever you need us. xoxo

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  34. So sorry to here that Erika. At least you know now rather than later. And it sounds like you've got some great doctors right behind you. Sending you and your mum lots of positive thoughts. x

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  35. Ow no, I am so sorry! Those are some harsh news to get! But at least you can take precautions so that you don't have to go through what your mom did later - right?

    Best wishes and hugs on this Sunday in March <3

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  36. Erika, so very sorry to hear this! WOW, I can't even imagine the tons of emotions and feeling you are going through right now. Well I am glad there is a community like the blogging community where we can atleast try to connect with you and bring a smile to your face....continue being positive and God bless you and your family for all your strength!!!!!

    Besos,
    Maurenice

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  37. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way... we are all with you and you will get through this xx

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  38. Sweet, sweet Erika. I have not been around lately therefor I did not know about this. I feel certain everything is going to be just fine! Your spiritual wisdom and your positive attitude will help you through this whole difficult situation, both for your mom and yourself. Do not worry, go with the flow, take one day at the time and just continue be the amazinbg person you already are.
    Sending all my Love to You!

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  39. Oh dear Erika. I took the worse time to take a break cuz I didn't get to see this post. I'm sorry your going through all of this but I'm actually happy you get your self tested and now you know. When I had fibroids in my breast i had to find the strength to go to the doctor. Your a strong awesome woman and I'm sending you some love and hugs. Good luck with the testing and I'll be thinking about you and your mom. *BIG HUGS*

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  40. Your beautiful postitive attitude is inspiring :) You're so strong and I know you'll get through this. Keeping you in my thoughts.

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  41. Erika, I will be thinking of you and sending lots and lots of positive thoughts and vibes your way! Lots of love and light, my dear! You are stronger than you ever could imagine. I can clearly see that through your voice. xoxo Samantha

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  42. I'm so very sorry to hear that. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way, prayers for you and your mother.

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  43. Another reason why I believe life isn't fair. My thoughts are with you and your mother at this time. It is important to look for happiness in the midst of angst. You are wonderful and with your strong family and blogging friends behind you, you'll make the decisions that are perfect for you.

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  44. I'm so, so sorry to hear this. Keep up the positive thoughts and know we're all hoping for the best for you and your mom.

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  45. Just checking in on you. Hope your doing okay. Miss you.

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  46. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way...

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    Thanks!

    xo,
    nicolette

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  47. Sweet Erika
    You inspire me in so many ways. Your positive attitude and outlook on life(despite sad times) makes me remember to always be grateful and not whine about the small things. Know that you're in my prayers(so is your mom). Lots of hugs and love to you. XX

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