so i'm at work right now - one of those days i'll just be starring at my computer screen and waiting for my phone to ring .. (lack of pictures b/c i only have the one's here at my work computer to work with)
(Kayleigh, Cailtyn, and Me)
so as of now - they are saying since her heart wasn't working right, her brain did not get enough oxygen and that's what caused her collapse - her brain just shut down everything and THANK GOD my dad saw her when he did and i was able to give her CPR to get her back with us! - everything from 'that' night is so vivid and i can't shake how she looked, felt, and feeling helpless - i truly believe it was a miracle that i was able to bring her back and for her to be alive - i just can not wait to hold and kiss her and not let her leave my site!
for me - i knew i was always the 'calm, cool, collective' one when it came to disasters, but for the people around me - i always, always, always thought i would absolutely lose and i mean LOSE it if something happened to someone so close - i guess i found that in crisis i am able to handle a situation and when the time is right i let myself lose it - then pull back together to make sure everything happens what needs to ..
i always think that life teaches us so many things - i been through hell and back in my life - and to this day i thank god for what i went through and for the people who "got me back" - i think without those past experiences, without the pain, without the joy, without the love, without the lose and win, without the tears, without the suffering, without the excitement - i wouldn't be the person i am today - the person who truly can step up to the plate and get things done - and do it right! .. i've come a long way in life ..
i am thankful that Kayleigh is still with us - Dr.'s telling me she's doing amazing - i am thankful that i will get another chance to hold her in my arms and love her to pieces!
i'm just praying since i got no phone call last night - everything went SUPER well - and i get her home today!
** Thank You my loves for the prayers they seem to have worked wonders **
i will tell Kayleigh ALL about you guy's and your super awesome healing powers and amazing energy!
she LOVES hearing stories!