I Confess ...

i read A. Liz Adventures on a regular and she has been doing this "I Confess" series - which turns out to be one of those 'link parties' - i admit i have NO IDEA what a 'link party' is or how they work or what they do -  but i do like the 'I Confess series' - so i'm joining in ... i guess?

I Confess --- I am BRCA positive, which means i carry the genetic gene for breast and ovarian cancer - which eventually i will need to get a double mastectomy and my ovaries removed to prevent myself from ever getting cancer (in at least those areas) - but i have held off b/c i have not had children yet and i plan on breast feeding - and yes at times i do get in the dumps over it - especially every 6 months when i have to get all my tests done which they always find 'something' which makes me pretty much have a mini-nervous breakdown till the results come back - *knock on wood* everything has been benign :o) 

I Confess --- I have a poor self body image - it doesn't mean i'm not self confident it just means i never think my body is ever up to par - i pretty much think i can always be skinnier and firmer - if i'm not about 100-105 lbs i'm miserable with my weight and yes i will cry my eyes out over it - as i'm getting older i'm realizing that it's not about a number and about being healthy and bliss filled - but don't get me wrong, i'm still all about being thin, i'll never accept having extra pounds on me - also i am more comfortable in a bikini than a 1 piece at whatever weight i'm at, it's really strange :o/

I Confess --- I haven't been to a mall in YEARS (this is coming from a girl that has a mall 15 mins in every direction - NJ is the mall capital) but i on-line shop hardcore - I without exaggeration have over 200+ pairs of designer jeans (last count was a few years ago) - but i also got 99% of them on sale, so that's gotta count for something?! - my closets are jam packed (slight understatement) with clothes that still have the tags on them and shoes still in their original box with the paper stuff still in them - i also have an addiction to designer handbags and will only use my 'new' bag for 1-2 seasons then it will sit in its dust-bag for years - oh yea and the sunglasses, there's a slight hoarding situation there too, way too many pairs for this 1 face i have (hey admitting i have a problem is the first step, no?)

I Confess --- I have not a clue how to 'work' twitter - i have an account - i ask people (bloggers) to join it - but i have yet to figure out how you communicate on it! - i hear it's a great way to make connections, but this Jersey girl just doesn't get the in's and out's of it all - re-tweeting and all the hash-tags and tinyurl's - it's just too much - plus none of my friends use twitter as a way of communicating, we're Facebook people - YES i would like twitter lessons though! - anyone interested? 

WHAT DO YOU CONFESS?